9 posts tagged “poop”
so i arrive at home, and i put on my itunes on random... and an old familiar song comes up ...
You light me up and then I fall for you
you lay me down and then I call for you
stumbling on reasons that are far and few
I'd let it all come down and then some for youPretty baby don't you leave me
I have been saving smiles for you
pretty baby why can't you see
you're the one that I belong to
I'll be the embrace that keeps you warm
for you're the sun that breaks the storm
I'll be alright and I'll sleep sound
as long as you keep comin' around, oh pretty babyAnd I know things can't last forever
but there are lessons that you'll never learn
oh just the scent of you it makes me hurt
so how's it you that makes me better[chorus]
W hy can't you hold me and never let go
when you touch me it is me that you own
pretty baby oh the place that you hold in my heart
would you break it apart again... oh pretty baby[chorus]
all though this song has a different meaning to me now, it's still makes me smile. what an interesting day. studied hard for my ochem (and i will be content whether it be a failing or passing grade... because i KNOW i studied hard. so i can walk out happy). kristine came to riverside, brought me some pasolubong (i believe that is how you spell it) from new york / wash dc. (: scenic drive with tin. meet up with karl, to watch harry potter! i can't believe he feel asleep. what a loser! hahaha it's okaaayyy ... fun fun night with reeka, karl, and company (: the end. weeeeeeeee! oooh i saw april ! woow, haven't seen that lady in sooooooo long. i miss her. she was my first friend at UCR, but now we got separated ): it was rather nice to have a conversation with her.
what a nice way to end everything.
i like how you assume that i'm just going to stop. nope. wrong. i won't quit. because i'm convinced i'm right i won't stop, until someone tells me i'm wrong. but you know i'm right. everyone knows i'm right, so .... no quitting anytime soon.
don't worry. i'm just being dormant right now. but you'll see what i mean, when the time is right.
so much for birthday wishes
i've been too busy with
bad memories you've made me
i don't think i`ll get over it.
to be honest, i can't see how this could be fair
i feel so alone but you seem to be just fine
don't ask me
good intentions won't change everything
this could be this last day i hold my breath
and stay awake for you
20 hours deep,
oh it was enough time for you to change everything
20 hours deep
im drownin' myself with thoughts of you and your company
tell me how this is fair.
stay awayy
stole this off someone's myspace a long time ago. how true is that? so true.
it's like 100 in riverside. so here's the plan, study like crazy, til i feel like i should stop. ... then dinner with the roomie (love her to itty bitty pieces).
oh man, it's crazy. i feel soooooooooooooo good (: except during lecture, because im about to like ... drop on the floor and sleep. ahahah. nonetheless, ochem is pretty interesting (: fsho.
to you: thanks for the endless support this weekend. (:
Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright
But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
i'm lying here in the dark
watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
[Bridge]
And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
nothing else,cuz you know I give you all of me
[Chorus]
I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the mornin and the tears are pouring
And I want make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come on do it right
All I wanted was to know i'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I've found
Remember when [I] said that [I] would change
Don’t let me down
It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more
[Bridge]
[Chorus]
Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love for me
We can’t escape the love
With everything that you have
[Bridge]
[Chorus]
went to irvine today,after a blah morning. (: i shouldn't have gone, but i knew that seeing my loved ones would pick me up. and boy did they.
irvine is really my getaway. somewhat. if i need time to breathe, i always think of riverside, and today was definitely worth it. even though deep inside, i knew i shouldnt have gone, because of work work work blah blah, but in the end, i loved it.
the fact that the concert, "the big show" held by the zeta phi rho brothers of uci was for a good cause made me happy. habitat for humanity to be specific. i want to volunteer for something again, and get that fulfillment that i felt just by attending the concert, more often. i got to see jamie and khrystyn, and they make me smile (:
then listening to CJ connection (my biiigg brooo! whooooo!) made me laugh. they are pretty good stage performers. while christine ofrecio has sucha soulful voice, while kristen dela cruz sang songs that felt sooooo awesome to here.
music is soothing for the soul
ooh and talking to my cousin after the concert, made me smile.
i wish i went to UCI more and more each time i go there. i dont know why. however, there must be a reason why im at UCR, and i think i know why. i just need to really make sure that i am right, before i make the decision of really transfering out. i don't know yet, but i am seriously contemplating about it, but i have to make sure, that UCR really isn't the place for me. i cant think of reasons of why UCR is bad, but i can think of reasons why i should go to UCI. hmmm, this is going to take some time.
i have kristine's car keys, and a part of me wants to run away and just drive around riverside, and just think. think about everything, and take everything that i have. i get so caught up in my work and everything in between, i sometimes forget where i am, and who i have become. i really don't know what's up with my head these days. and i thnk me suppressing is taking a toll on my health. these days, i get easily sick, but i know i have a pretty dang strong immune system ... well i guess not anymore.
sure, everyone has their share of bad days.
i just wished that mine didnt have to last for 03840385 hours.
i know i think too much. i really should stop that, because it really doesnt do any good for me. but i do it, because i am a very contemplative person. let's get this straight - i am not emo. i am just very contemplative, and i like to think about anything and everything, and i really dont think it's a bad thing.
at least, i am addressing all my suppressed feelings by thinking about them, instead of thinking that they don't exist.
i just need to figure out what's good for me. i need to figure out where my priorities should lie, because as of now, i think it's really messed up.
oooh, and i attached some of the music from the big show. good stuff. you should check it ouutttt
i feel used.
you aren't going to be his first, his last, and his only. he's loved before; he'll love again. but if he loves you now, what else matters? he's not perfect. you're not either. if he can make you laugh and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. he's not going to be thinking of you every moment of the day, but he'll give you a part of him that he knows YOU can break - his heart. so don't hurt him. don't change him. don't analyze and don't expect more that he can give. smile when he makes you happy, let him know when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not here. because perfect guys don't exist. but there's always that one guy that is perfect for you. sometimes, that perfect guy isn't ready to be that guy. sometimes, he just doesnt have to be the one. it'll hurt but you have to let him go, if you love him as much as you say you do.
fsho fsho. good read.
Don't tell me you're done for
Don't need to hear you're done for
But you can tell me what you are running from
I need you more than you need you
I can see you're really really running
Can I ask you where you gonna run to
And you think your really really funny
Well I don't think your funny as you do
We all feel like we're breaking sometime
But I won't give you up tonight
Stay awake, stay awake
Survive
I've got nineteen stars that I
Give your name tonight
And I wanna scream, wanna scream your name.
Star light, star bright can save
You're my wish tonight
Don't tell me it doesn't matter
I'll tell you what matters
Bare feet in the summer
Open windows at night
You think that no one needs you
You don't have nothing to see through
Well I needed you.
Don't I count?
Lets fight.
Show me anger
Fierce fists clutching onto air.
Show me anything.
Just show me you care.
Stay awake, stay awake
Survive
I've got nineteen stars that I
Give your name tonight
I wanna scream, wanna scream your name
Star light, Star bright can save
You're my wish tonight
No one can catch me
The way that you catch me
The way that you keep me when I'm out of sight
What if I need you
What if I can't see you
I'm running out of life
No one can catch me
The way that you catch me
The way that you keep me when I'm out of time
What if I need you
What if I can't see you
I'm running out of life
Please
Stay awake, stay awake
Survive
I've got nineteen stars that I
Give your name tonight
And I wanna scream, wanna scream your name
Star light, star bright can save
You're my wish
You're my wish my wish
You're my wish tonight
