i still update this, for the sake information
my dad just said "you didnt finish your eggs. there are people who are dying of starvation, and who would do anything for this little crumb of egg" (of course he didnt say this in english).
... it was a tiny crumb. seriously. heh.
What are your plans for the weekend?
murrieta, glendale, studying for finals / midterms, shopping, nothing too drastic
I thought about you again today
You were wearing that same old face
You know the one with the smile that never ever seems to go away
I asked how you were doing
You said I'm fine, just fine
Well baby you are, that's exactly what you are
You're beautiful with eyes like diamond
Always pleasant like a well-kept promise
A damn shame that your girl doesn't know just what she has
He takes you for granted
Beautiful enough to drive a girl crazy
Always smiling even if you had a bad day
No wonder why I feel what I feel for ya babe
Hook:
And All That I Can Say
Is That I Need You Here Today
And If she Ever Goes Away At Least You Know I Care For You
And Baby All That I can Dream
Is That You Feel The Same For Me
And Maybe Then You'll See That I'm The One You Wish That She Could Be
2nd Verse:
You can't deny that her love is not the same
She ain't sweet no more, boy what for
I know you're strong and you can take it but
I'm here if ever you get weak, just come to me
I'll appreciate all the love we make
Oh for heaven sakes
Cause baby to me you're ...
feelin' thiss
went to irvine today,after a blah morning. (: i shouldn't have gone, but i knew that seeing my loved ones would pick me up. and boy did they.
irvine is really my getaway. somewhat. if i need time to breathe, i always think of riverside, and today was definitely worth it. even though deep inside, i knew i shouldnt have gone, because of work work work blah blah, but in the end, i loved it.
the fact that the concert, "the big show" held by the zeta phi rho brothers of uci was for a good cause made me happy. habitat for humanity to be specific. i want to volunteer for something again, and get that fulfillment that i felt just by attending the concert, more often. i got to see jamie and khrystyn, and they make me smile (:
then listening to CJ connection (my biiigg brooo! whooooo!) made me laugh. they are pretty good stage performers. while christine ofrecio has sucha soulful voice, while kristen dela cruz sang songs that felt sooooo awesome to here.
music is soothing for the soul
ooh and talking to my cousin after the concert, made me smile.
i wish i went to UCI more and more each time i go there. i dont know why. however, there must be a reason why im at UCR, and i think i know why. i just need to really make sure that i am right, before i make the decision of really transfering out. i don't know yet, but i am seriously contemplating about it, but i have to make sure, that UCR really isn't the place for me. i cant think of reasons of why UCR is bad, but i can think of reasons why i should go to UCI. hmmm, this is going to take some time.
i have kristine's car keys, and a part of me wants to run away and just drive around riverside, and just think. think about everything, and take everything that i have. i get so caught up in my work and everything in between, i sometimes forget where i am, and who i have become. i really don't know what's up with my head these days. and i thnk me suppressing is taking a toll on my health. these days, i get easily sick, but i know i have a pretty dang strong immune system ... well i guess not anymore.
sure, everyone has their share of bad days.
i just wished that mine didnt have to last for 03840385 hours.
i know i think too much. i really should stop that, because it really doesnt do any good for me. but i do it, because i am a very contemplative person. let's get this straight - i am not emo. i am just very contemplative, and i like to think about anything and everything, and i really dont think it's a bad thing.
at least, i am addressing all my suppressed feelings by thinking about them, instead of thinking that they don't exist.
i just need to figure out what's good for me. i need to figure out where my priorities should lie, because as of now, i think it's really messed up.
oooh, and i attached some of the music from the big show. good stuff. you should check it ouutttt
In 5 words or less, who are you?
Submitted by dejablu503.
i am a messy organizer. -- i like clean rooms and neat notes, but i keep my room messy. awkward? very much so.
i feel used.
little cousins who take my blood pressure and say that i have a bp of six point five.
little cousin, cj, who upon seeing up, greeted me by saying "ahoy ye mateys" with pirates hat and all.
oh and he called me "fat and ugly". i think he'll be the only guy in the world who can call me fat and ugly (:
ichiban with the mother. bonding over stuff about the sissy poo, and friends. talking to her about good stuff
my sister's new camera
seeing my sister in a DRESS.
oh and watching SNL as i do arts and crafts.
good lord, i love the weekend.
you aren't going to be his first, his last, and his only. he's loved before; he'll love again. but if he loves you now, what else matters? he's not perfect. you're not either. if he can make you laugh and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. he's not going to be thinking of you every moment of the day, but he'll give you a part of him that he knows YOU can break - his heart. so don't hurt him. don't change him. don't analyze and don't expect more that he can give. smile when he makes you happy, let him know when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not here. because perfect guys don't exist. but there's always that one guy that is perfect for you. sometimes, that perfect guy isn't ready to be that guy. sometimes, he just doesnt have to be the one. it'll hurt but you have to let him go, if you love him as much as you say you do.
fsho fsho. good read.
Don't tell me you're done for
Don't need to hear you're done for
But you can tell me what you are running from
I need you more than you need you
I can see you're really really running
Can I ask you where you gonna run to
And you think your really really funny
Well I don't think your funny as you do
We all feel like we're breaking sometime
But I won't give you up tonight
Stay awake, stay awake
Survive
I've got nineteen stars that I
Give your name tonight
And I wanna scream, wanna scream your name.
Star light, star bright can save
You're my wish tonight
Don't tell me it doesn't matter
I'll tell you what matters
Bare feet in the summer
Open windows at night
You think that no one needs you
You don't have nothing to see through
Well I needed you.
Don't I count?
Lets fight.
Show me anger
Fierce fists clutching onto air.
Show me anything.
Just show me you care.
Stay awake, stay awake
Survive
I've got nineteen stars that I
Give your name tonight
I wanna scream, wanna scream your name
Star light, Star bright can save
You're my wish tonight
No one can catch me
The way that you catch me
The way that you keep me when I'm out of sight
What if I need you
What if I can't see you
I'm running out of life
No one can catch me
The way that you catch me
The way that you keep me when I'm out of time
What if I need you
What if I can't see you
I'm running out of life
Please
Stay awake, stay awake
Survive
I've got nineteen stars that I
Give your name tonight
And I wanna scream, wanna scream your name
Star light, star bright can save
You're my wish
You're my wish my wish
You're my wish tonight
Where do you go to get away from it all?
Submitted by Hops.
i'd like to go to disneyland everytime i am stressed out. you know, the happiest place on earth really isnt far from the truth. realitistically speaking, i just go to anyone of my friends, and have them tell some lame joke and it makes me laugh. it doesnt take a lot for me to find something amusing, so it's all good. it's all good.
