"breathe"
i wish i wrote this: "Somewhere between the procrastination...and the homework...and the incessant forwards...and the friendships... and the calls to each other complaining about crushes...somewhere between the phone calls to old friends...and the "i miss you's", and the "i love you's"...and the what are you doing tonight's and somewhere between all the changing and growing...somewhere between the studying for tests...and the pretending to study for tests...and the downright not studying for tests...i forgot...(i forgot what school was all about..) somewhere between all the appointments and starbucks coffees ...and paying for bills and then not paying bills...making plans then breaking plans...appearing, disappearing, then reappearing... i forgot that pretending to be happy doesnt make you happy and that pretending to be smart doesnt make you smart....i forgot that you cant forget the past...fear of the future...i forgot that you cant control falling in love...and you cant make yourself fall in love...i learned that i can love...i learned that its okay to mess up...and its okay to ask for help...and its okay to feel like crap...i learned that its okay to complain and whine to your friends for a whole day...i learned that sometimes the things you want most, you just cant have...i learned that the greatest thing about high school and college and the working world isnt the parties or the hook ups...its the friendships which means taking chances... i learned that sometimes the things we want to forget are the things which we need to talk about most...i learned that time and love can heal all things...i learned that just when you think it cant get worse-it does...but with love and support of friends-you survive...i learned that when you start feeling bad about losing touch-those you've lost touch with are feeling the same way- i learned that letters from friends are the most important things... But basically i just learned that my friends are the most important people in the world to me and without them i wouldnt be who i am today."
stole this off someone's myspace a long time ago. how true is that? so true.
it's like 100 in riverside. so here's the plan, study like crazy, til i feel like i should stop. ... then dinner with the roomie (love her to itty bitty pieces).
oh man, it's crazy. i feel soooooooooooooo good (: except during lecture, because im about to like ... drop on the floor and sleep. ahahah. nonetheless, ochem is pretty interesting (: fsho.
to you: thanks for the endless support this weekend. (:
